Wow! Look how much you guys have grown since I've seen you all last!
I know that it's been fifty years since my last post but I have been so busy that I have to just make time in my schedule to remember how to breathe.
There are a few sentences that everyone likes to hear; "I know what you mean", "I get it", "I understand", and "I can relate". Well not everyone means it when they say that they can relate to you. People mainly say these phrases to ease a persons' mind or just as a kind gesture. Well I am here to tell you that today is, that I CAN RELATE.
I get stress, I'm taking fifteen credits and work five days a week (weekends included). When I'm not doing homework, I'm in class. And when I'm doing neither I'm at work. And if you feel bad about your dating life, just come and have a sit with me because I have story after story from my dating experiences and they just keep rolling through too.
Now maybe I'm not on the same level as you, maybe your problems are worse. That's fine, at least you know of one person who is going through something similar. Maybe my problems are worse, well then freak. Rejoice! You can not feel so bad about your life now.
The point is, is that it's nice to have that person there to be able to say, "I know what you mean", "I get it", "I understand", and "I can relate" and actually KNOW what you mean, GET it, UNDERSTAND, or RELATE to you.
Relate-able Story #1:
So, there's this guy (of course, isn't that how every great story starts?), and at first impression he was alright, pretty cute but nothing extremely special. All this hype surrounding him just built him up on a tower so tall I wasn't overly impressed right off the bat. Then we got to talking more and more and his personality is perfect. Honestly just amazing. And suddenly his cuteness turned into "Dang boy! You have got it going on!" Well naturally it got to the frustrating point of me wanting him to ask me out. Call me crazy that I want an attractive boy with a rockin' personality to ask me out, right? Is that too much to ask. The universe thinks so, because come to find out, he might have a girlfriend!
Darn girlfriends, ruining everything.
Nothing is for 100% certain that, that information is true. But it is at about 85%, ish, right now and that is a lot of percents.
Well, me being the super creeper that I am, stalked him on every level of every social media portal out there. Guess what.. It gave nothing away!! So I really still just don't even know if he really has a girlfriend or not! And as you can imagine, this makes things worse. I would rather him have a girlfriend and me know about it, than him not and let the possibility of it eat away my brain, like a zombie thought that has come to take over. And of course in my own ideal world, he is single and will ask me out.
Now, I realize that this makes me sound obsessive. So I even have a background for that. Hold on to your hats and wigs! One of his friends/ acquaintances came over to me and asked me if he were to come ask for my number and ask me on a date if I would say yes. So my brain automatically thought that, that's what was going to happen.
So many confusions in my brain. I feel the little zombie chowing down as I speak.
See where I am coming from!? And why I want to know so bad!?
Well why don't you just ask him yourself? You may ask. Well, we are not on that level yet, know what I mean? I don't actually know him all too terribly well yet. So, we are not at a place where I can comfortably ask him these things.
Oh the woes of it all.
Relate-able Story #2:
Now don't think I can only relate to the bad. I have good things to relate on. So in continuation of my first story actually. The day that I started this post actually (I'm sorry, it's taken me a decade to complete), this guy asked me for my number! Rejoice for all that is good in the world!
So we having been talking for a few days now and things are going swimmingly (I hope). And we are supposed to actually hang out come this weekend.
But here is my number one worry: Out of all of the crappy relationships and douche guys I have been through, I am scared! I don't want to be hurt again, being hurt sucks. So, I am not overly anxious to let my hopes get too high.
There are a certain amount of risks that you have to take though, if you are going to get anywhere. And trust me it applies to more than just relationships.
Life Lesson #1: If you are going to be guarded, do not guard yourself so much that no amount of feelings ever shows, or gets through. That is not the way to build trust in any relationship, whether it be personal, work, family, etc. Guard yourself to a certain extent, but there is still portions of yourself that you will HAVE to put out there if you expect to be able to progress. Just take it in steps, even if those are baby steps. You don't have to start out leaping into it.
It is a hard lesson that I had to learn, and am still learning myself. No one likes to be hurt. But just know that even if you do get hurt, try again, and know that someone out there can truly relate to what you are going through. I have been through and seen a time or two. I know what a person can hurt, or rejoice in. If need a story or two, come to me. I've got plenty up my sleeve.
Until next time ducklings. Byee!!
